Stepping Out to Step In
Being in the spiritual community like I am, I’ve heard the idea of a “divine inheritance” or “divine birthright” for years. While these phrases felt good and true on some level, they were never able to get past the barriers I had created in my mind against them until almost a month ago. I could always see that we as humans deserve happiness, wealth in all of its many forms, and freedom to explore what it means to be ourselves as well as the world around us. But, looking at the state of the world, I often found myself seeing these things as a rarity, and if these things are our birthright; something we inherently deserve, then why were so many in the world without them? I think through trying to reconcile these two polarities that I was feeling and seeing, I started to see the idea of divine inheritance as something that I could earn somehow. That I deserved wealth because I would share it with others, or would donate to charities, or just use it for good somehow. These things are great practices that I think a lot of us do regularly, but they are not bargaining chips for worthiness, because there is no way to bargain for something that is already ours to begin with.
It took me years to understand that there is no need for me to earn my “divine birthright”—my happiness, and the truth is, that during all that time, I was not even conscious of the fact that I was trying to do so. I thought I was worthy of all of the things I wanted, but every time I held that belief, I would add reasons why I was worthy. I didn’t realize that what made me worthy was my beating heart and nothing more, and this is true for everyone. We are worthy merely because we exist, and nothing can add to our worthiness nor take it away. The realization of this felt as if a cloud had been lifted. I could finally see all of beauty around me with clarity and feel all of the joy that was available for me everywhere that I looked. It was a feeling of being loved by something greater than myself, and the knowing that I deserved every bit of that love. It’s a feeling that I wish everyone could have consistently, but as we are human, it can be hard to hold onto these feelings even when the clarity has not gone and is still very much present within us.
As the feeling faded over time, I did not even notice myself slip back into putting more work and time into earning money and less time into the things that I love to do. Money is a fact of life, but quality of life while earning money is a necessity for health of all kinds. This is a surprisingly hard lesson I had already learned for myself about a year into the pandemic: that I value freedom, happiness, and experiencing life to the fullest. That I don’t want to live every week waiting for the weekend, and that while making money is a priority, it is not my first priority. My first priority is to myself and my own health and happiness. Working from home has really allowed me the freedom to put myself first that I had so craved without ever even realizing it. But, like all patterns that have only been healed once, it came back up to be looked at and healed again more completely than the last time.
These kinds of reoccurring patterns were shown to me as a spiral. To me, the spiral is a sacred symbol. It shows me that I’m here to learn certain things, just as we all are, and I will come to the same lesson again and again in a different form until I release the pattern. This releasing is done by understanding the pattern itself— where did it come from? Where did it start? Through this deep understanding of ourselves and our patterns come solutions, a way to step out of the cycle and heal ourselves as well as our lives from the inside out. I like to look at the outside of the spiral as the start of the lesson and pattern to be healed and the center of the spiral as the culmination of all the tiny steps taken and growth had along the way—the place where we can see all of the things that have happened for what they are and can view them and ourselves with compassion. It feels like a coming back to source, and thus, coming back into who we truly are, and the love that we came from. Being able to look at these patterns while we’re still in them though is the tricky part. We can often see something is reoccurring, but we cannot get to the why, and the why is what allows us to gain a broader perspective in order to see the pattern for what it is and be able to choose differently. Luckily for me, my guides stepped in this time to have me take a closer look at my slip back into this old pattern whenever I did one of my routine check-ins.
It was a much longer discussion than what I’m going to share, but I wanted to share one particular phrase that they shared with me, as I can see how helpful it could be for everyone reading this. The phrase is, “Money is yours; you do not need to chase it.” This is an amazingly simple yet powerful affirmation that we can all use when we are feeling money anxiety or feel unable to look past the material state of the present. Or even when, like me, you fall into a pattern of taking care of your bank account more than you take care of yourself. Looking back through the last couple of months, I can see clearly that I have been working on healing my relationship with money in a very intuitive way. It makes me wonder if they had a hand in my sudden understanding of the concept of divine inheritance…. If so, here is my acknowledgement and deep appreciation. This is knowledge I will always take forward with me, and my hope is that you can start working on holding this knowledge in your heart as well so you may always carry it forward with you.
May we all remember that money is ours and that we do not need to chase it, and that our lives are meant to be spent in true happiness with the same love that we were created with.
With all of my love,
-Elena
